What is more important when you want both:

Living the dream of helping people?

Or

Disappearing for a year or 2 to find yourself?

Or are they both ridiculous things.

I have done something I have never in my life done. I ordered a book a few weeks ago that I though would help me figure some things out, while drunk and talking to Melanie. I stayed up til 3:30 reading last night and I think I am more confused and worried than I was before. SCREW READING BOOKS FOR REASONS. Back to my lighthearted reading.